Why am I not satisfied with my life?

I think you are actually trying to answer the universal question - Is this all there is? Nothing you do or achieve is going to change the fact that someday, you too are going to die. If I were you, I would do what the once famous movie producer did. I would sell everything and move to someplace really cheap to live, like Barstow, and move into a trailer park. I would get rid of my car and travel around on a bike. I'd spend my time getting to know my white trash neighbors, and sitting outside at night on my reclineable lawn chair staring at the stars. I'd buy a cheap barbeque and a case of cheap brew and invite the neighbors over for burgers and hot dogs. Get back in touch with the great unwashed, let your hair grow out and just wake up every day knowing you are alive and free. No amount of awards or achievements is going to change the fact that you are just another human being who's been dying since the day you were born. Good luck.